“Have you been in that room?” The nurse asked me and continued, “she is so sweet, so much energy in the air.” I agreed. I was struck by her words. So she is able to sense the energies also in the room of the dying also.

Last shift, i did not have anyone to sit with. I asked the cna if there is a patient very close to death, she told me yes, a patient is on the brink of passing. I could sense it by strong emotions it evokes in me. I wanted so badly to be there but the family was with the patient and I was not able to be with the patient.

I sat and did long distance reiki for them and went into deep state of meditation. It was so deep, it was like in a trance. I felt completely removed from everything around me.

I found myself thinking of my own death, and feel a longing for that land. My mother told me a few months before she died that her mother came to her in a dream and said, “Mee Ing, it is time to go to your father’s house.” Afraid of death, my mother recounted it with a shudder and did not want to think on it. Her mother was so right, the life beyond is our father’s house.