12-30-11

I found myself thinking, I could see the hand of God so clearly in my life until now when everything appears to be at a standstill. When G. got sick, and hinted he wanted to move back here, I moved us here within a month. It was quite a feat, the speed took us by surprise also. For months, I could not believe it was real. When he passed away, the hand of God was so clear also, guiding me all the way. From noticing his death certificate had an error in it to getting accepted into the training centre and an airline ticket opening enabling me to go home and visit my mother before my course started. Until then, the travel agent was telling me, there were not seats available. I knew I would pass my cna exam, he so clearly led me all the way through.

Then my mother appeared to be dying, making it so I had to go back again and for 6 weeks. My siblings wanted more, two to three months. I put a stop at six weeks. I could do six weeks and that was the max. It turned out to be a good decision when my brother decided to go back two days after I left and picked up where I left off with my mother.

I came back, start looking for work, sure I could find work before Christmas and everything came to a standstill or has it? I looked ahead and see nothing but clear road ahead, no clouds, nothing but clear air which is a good sign. I am being impatient. Things will happen when they happen. Trust, Beatrice told me. Trust.