I woke up, lay in bed and thought – at these last years of my life, what does life want from me? It was only when I was fully awake, I laughed at the thought. I am 60 and I thought about last years of my life. I should have 20 or more years but life is so unpredictable. I could be here today and gone tomorrow. I don’t want to live, so fixated on a life that could be here today and gone tomorrow. The nun in me – I might have left but the nun never really leave me.