I went, “I want her so badly to win it.” In fact, I could not imagine her not winning it. Her rival is making me sweat. And then it came to me, “In life, we often do not get what we want.“ I think of the must have I have, and kept repeating the phrase.
I read in a book on Buddhism. Desires cause us sufferings. Remove desire and there is no sufferings.
There are times I feel disembodied, like I am passing through and while I live as well as I could in this life, a part of me is divorced from it. And that the higher part of it knows it. It is a strange feeling.
The Quiet Land 