Recently, I had odds with a person. I struggled with it, freed myself and got embroiled with her again. On a meeting, I bested her one unwittingly. I felt gleeful for a while. It was good besting her. My mind told me it was wrong of me to feel that way but the feeling was soo good, I bested her. Slowly, my mind told me, no, it was good, I caused her to suffer. Being an empath and only too human I have suffered that way. More spiritually mature now, I am able to move from such feelings and soar above. She is a young thing and might not be able to and would be suffering. Were I in her shoes I would be able also, being shown as less. I wondered how do holy people like Dalai Lama do it, love all beings with that love and compassion.

Last night, I experienced it, compassion for her and with it, I freed myself from the dross. It is alright being sucked into dross. It reminds me I am only too human, an imperfect being. Not accepting that stems from insidious pride or spiritual materialism which is more subtle and dangerous in that it encloses a person in self-delusion. Being self-deluded, the person would not be aware and open to changing. To attain to wholeness, we have to change and change often working toward betterness as a person and wholeness.