I was asked if revealing too much about self does not leaves one vulnerable. It could. Not for me. I am kind of a transparent kind of person. There is little in my life I need to hide.

A phrase came to me just now, we are our own worst enemies… We fear ourselves the most. We fear people might see us for what we are, might see our fears, weaknesses, the parts of us we ourselves prefer not to see.

Mine was a long process of being honest with myself. I confronted myself brutally. When I did not want to see is when I force myself to see it till there is very little about me I do not already know. And lo behold, I found that to be my strength. There is no weaknesses, flaws of mine anyone can use to beat me with because I am aware of them. I do not have to live in fear others might discover I am less or whatever…. I already know it.

It came to me strength comes from self-knowledge. No skeletons, ghosts to hide. But above all my strength comes from the Force that leads me. I am aware of it. It is a Force outside of myself, but in me.

To give an example. I was at a course, nervous about my ability to accomplish the entire thing. One day I sat with the class watching another perform lab test when I was aware of strength seeping into me. It was as clear as if I were able to see this energy, this strength coming into it. With it, it told me there is no need to be nervous, practice hard and I could execute it flawlessly. My nervousness, fears left with that. I became one of the best in class. Today I am still able to see that moment, see that strength entering into me.