Twice now, a feeling of sadness came over me without discernible cause. I hope it is nothing. It is likely being worried about Ma who just lost her eldest son. Second child of hers she lost. She is 87, almost died a few times but pulled through each time. I phone her daily and wish I am able to go home and be with her. I have to wait till September.

I do not mind sadness. One can be sad and stay in peace in soul. The peace enables one to endure times of sadness. Into my mind came image of walks I took those months I took care of my husband who was dying of ALS. Often, as I walked in the early hours of morn, I would feel my soul dark as the world around and in that darkness, I could almost feel the sadness within me like bells slowly tolling, resounding through my soul. Dark were those months.

Most of the time, I choose to stay happy and afloat. It is night. I will go to bed, tomorrow will be another day and it will be a better day. Night time – things always appear so much darker. With daylight comes light, a new day and often things either get dispeled or look so much better.