Just now as I got ready for work, I decided to take a little nap. Much to my surprise, my heart was racing like it does at 3 am – almost every night shift. Almost every time at 3 pm night shift, my mouth would suddenly become dry, my heart beat uncomfortably and sometimes I feel drowsy. That feeling always passed after a few minutes and I am fine again. I thought, don’t tell me after a few nights of work, the glamour is wearing off and I am dreading the 12 to 13 hours night shift. And this is the starting of phobia to it.

I lay in bed and could feel myself calming down, calming down, my spirit getting recollected. I realized how often when I am not careful, I would operate in hyper mode, my mind racing racing racing. I have to train myself and slow down. Slow down. I still prefer 7 pm to 7.30 am than 7 am to 7.30 pm. I will stay in the presence of God tonight as I work and at 2 am or 3 am engaged in meditation.