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Life is very simple, often it is thoughts complicating life so why think so much. For instance if someone acts negatively toward me, it does not hurt me any, it hurts the other person so shrug it off and move on.

Seeking nothing is everything.
Less is often more.
I do not need to seek what I already have.
What I do not have, I do not need to seek.
Seeking for love, for affirmation
From those who already love us.
Seeking God and God is there.

One day I asked my brother, are you happy? What is happiness? he responded, I am contented and that suffices for me. His words stayed with me through the years, how true they are, happiness is fleeting, contentment is long enduring. Contentment goes deeper than happiness.

This morning out of nowhere, happiness assailed me. I felt so good, light and buoyant. I felt I could fly with it. Why and what is it, I wondered when my mind told me to just enjoy it and flew with it. I did. It was a wondrous feeling of euphoria, perfect joy.

In school, I read the book Perfect Joy of St. Francis. Those words stay with me ever since. I do experience it now and again, that joy untainted by anything or any clouds.

Kanowit, you so haunt my soul. On your soil I grew and bloomed, like a wild flower in the wilds, surrounded by the green jungle where orangutans roamed and by the flowing river where we took our swim, unsupervised. You placed in me an innocence which never left me.

I woke up at 5 am and lay in bed, planning my day. I should go to Costco and get that salami I sampled yesterday. It is soo good. But it is fattening, my mind contested. No, I have to get some, it is on sale and a great price. Imagine for the same price I get one of it only elsewhere. At Costco, I will get three. It is fattening, my mind contested again.

As I lay there, I thought of eating that good hotdog from Costco, Clark Howard said it is very good, and it is but each time I try it, I hardly tasted it.

Gluttony, gluttony is a sin and one I do not believe is a sin and still do not. But what is this about food? I am going to train my mind into believing I am not into food. Mind is a powerful weapon. It is possible to train the mind. I trained it to believe I do not like fried food, ugh, so greasy and I do not crave it though I do enjoy deep fried chicken wings.

I am going to train my tongue to enjoy eating carrots. For the first time yesterday, I enjoyed it. I find I like it julienne. I sprinkle some seasoning on it and it is good.